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Yeah I've been abandoning this once again XD Never got around to scanning my original character drawing because I haven't had my scanner cord around. BUT I'm going to put up something else for now.

I don't have anything to report on, and probably won't be using this journal much anymore.

Today has kinda sucked. I mean, I woke up this morning feeling completely terrible - sore throat and huge headache. Sore throats are literally the worst. Every time I get them, I think of other things I'd prefer - stingy paper cut, getting slapped in the face, etc. Later that evening I took a nap and the headache was stronger than ever. And there's just other little things that has made today not-so-good.

I'm usually a really upbeat person, focusing more on the positive than anything, but today has been too annoying. But some nice things happened - got a nice text from a friend out of town and also got to talk to another friend I haven't spoken to in awhile. Things are complicated with him and he's not doing so well, so I'm hoping we get to hang out this weekend and talk more. These are probably the friends I've taken for granted. I have plenty of friends (seriously, plenty), but not really many who would be okay sitting down and talking and being there for me when I'm actually not the happiest person in the world. Nowadays people are just too busy to care anymore - even I'm still trying to keep my life well-balanced - but it would just be nice if things were a little different. Last night a friend told me, "if anything you do isn't working, you should fix it or scrap it." But what happens if you don't always have control?

I've been playing around with Visual C++ and made a pretty neat calculator. There's much better things you could spend your time on in that program, but for some reason I just really wanted to make a nice calculator lol.

I will try my best to scan something tonight or tomorrow.

So yesterday (Saturday) my bf, bff, and I went to Austin for 's birthday party. Didn't go how she planned but still very nice and fun I also got the chance to catch up with my other friends over there and it was AWESOME!! So much laughter and craziness~ I miss my Austin friends already *sigh*. Something awkward happened the next day after coming back into town but it turned out okay lol. Basically reinforced why I need a new phone :s OH WELL I got some amazing sleep and feel refreshed. This past week has been brutal as far as lack of sleep is concerned.

Oni-Con is coming up on Halloween weekend and I'm SO STOKED for it!!!! Only 2 people know who I'm cosplaying as, for everyone else it'll be a surprise

I've been making preparations for a second trip to Japan next year. The summer language school I may be going to looks really nice, but I haven't made any final decisions on where I'm applying yet. It's riding on a lot of factors like my final budget, location, staff, etc. To me, there's no better way to learn a language than to learn it in the country of origin. So the next trip should be a nice balance of learning and fun. I've been writing journals in Japanese and that also really helps. Maybe I'll do it on here every once in awhile.

Apologies for not putting up new art - I should have something up sometime this week but probably nothing fancy. Just some new character designs I've come up with recently.

Yeah. I'm updating.

Thought now was a pretty good time than ever.

So, it's been awhile. Like, over a year. I miss updating on here, and I actually have been working on a few things so. Just noticed I stopped updating after my 18th birthday, ha, weird O: IDK why that was like the "break point" or something, but I think my absence from here just stems from some memories I never wanted to revisit. My life in 2009 went from amazing and almost perfect, to COMPLETELY downhill. COMPLETELY. And it certainly was traumatizing. There is actually a Facebook group for other people who have also had a horrible/traumatizing 2009 year, freaky as it sounds (it was a very active group with tons of members; it's amazing how 2009 was crappy for so many people). Sometimes I still feel like I'm in aftershock, and stuck in some kind of glue that's making it hard to move forward. But then 2010 rolled around and brought along the best times I've ever had. Funny how that worked out.

Ohh yeah, whoever's even reading this, I freaking visited Japan back in May with . It was just us 2, and it was AWESOME. I did mention it on the very last journal I made, back when the trip wasn't set in stone. But we actually made it happen. It's fun to look back and think, wow, that was just an idea but...it came to reality. And oh man, I...can't explain enough how perfectly the trip went. Just thinking about it gives me chills. I would be typing for days if I explained all of the amazing things that happened. May 2010 marks the best month of my entire life; I don't think anything will ever top it.

There's a lot of other changes that have been made this year. My whole mindset on certain subjects like...music and hobbies, have really been shifted. I've met several new people who have changed my life, and it's great.

The past few days have been nice. Even with my horrible gaming addiction I've been acing my coursework pretty well, and it feels very good. And my boyfriend just...aaah. He is literally always there for me and makes me feel incredible. It's been nearly half a decade and there are still so many sparks.

This weekend I'm supposed to be visiting Austin with some friends. Yay I hope it happens, really missing some friends over there.

That's about it. I'll try to have something up this week but no promises.

I actually didn't talk about how my birthday went even though it was one of the best days I've had since all the emotional trauma.

I spent it with o' course, and he took me to this amazing sushi/tapioca place that not many people have heard of before. It's a very small place, and I'm assuming people don't like to recommend it because it's so small yet so awesome. The people are nice (I think it's one of those establishments completely run by a friendly Japanese family), their food is super cheap, they're really fast, they have the best tapioca I've tasted thus far, and the food is just so freakin' good.

I'd ordered some Philadelphia rolls and this reeeally delicious salmon steak with a side of white rice and tofu soup + salad. It was all so good @_@ Really wanna go back T_T

Later on when it got dark, he took me to a water wall downtown that I used to visit as a kid. It really brought back so many memories of my childhood, and being there with him just made it that much more mesmerizing..

Some of the time in between we pretty much just chilled out It went exactly how I had hoped my birthday would go. It was perfect and just one of those days I wish I could go back to.

Ummm as far as actually being 18, I really don't feel that much different. Of course I was able to get a facial piercing without parental consent but even then I still felt 17 There's just really not too much different now. Oh, I can't make certain pedo jokes anymore Those were kinda funny while they lasted. Ummmm yeah. And then there's the awkward ages in between. I'll probably carry out some life-threatening feats once I'm 19, similar with 20, then hit up Vegas at 21. Oh, this is random, but I MAY be going to Japan sometime early next year. It's not official yet but wants to take me with him. So we shall see. I've never even been out of this country before so...it would be a really nice trip with an amazing person.

Hope everyone else's lives are up to par!

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